We meet again.

Hello again (: I'm sorry I haven't posted recently, the pressure of year eleven is starting to go to my head I think and if I don't take some time to relax, I'll go insane. It sounds silly suggesting that high school is hectic because according to many adults, high school isn't part of the "real world" but personally, I think they're so consumed in their problems so they just disregard everything else. But I didn't blog to criticise, I just want to escape. Escape from everything about life. The politics, schools, assignments, pressure, responsibilities. I'm sure everyone has those moment where you feel like a robot created to serve other people and prioritize their happiness. So I just wanted to tell those people to keep holding on because soon it becomes worth the fight.

I've been listening to a song that was recently released and I find it to be quite a masterpiece. It is called Coming Home by Dirty Money - Diddy. The lyrics are really something special. They paint a picture of a thousand words.

[Chorus]
I'm coming home
I'm coming home
tell the World I'm coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home, I'm coming home
tell the World that I'm coming

Back where I belong, yeah I never felt so strong
(I'm back baby)
I feel like there's nothing that I can't try
and if you with me put your hands high
(put your hands high)
If you ever lost a light before, this ones for you
and you, the dreams are for you

I hear "The Tears of a Clown"
I hate that song
I always feel like they talking to me when it comes on
another day another Dawn
another Keisha, nice to meet ya, get the math I'm gone
what am I s'posed to do when the club lights come on
its easy to be Puff, its harder to be Sean
what if the twins ask why I aint marry their mom (why, damn!)
how do I respond?
what if my son stares with a face like my own
and says he wants to be like me when he's grown
shit! But I aint finished growing
another night the inevitible prolongs
another day another Dawn
just tell Taneka and Taresha I'll be better in the morn'
another lie that I carry on
I need to get back to the place I belong


[Chorus]


[Verse 2]
"A house is Not a Home", I hate this song
is a house really a home when your loved ones are gone
and niggas got the nerve to blame you for it
and you know you woulda took the bullet if you saw it
but you felt it and still feel it
and money can't make up for it or conceal it
but you deal with it and you keep ballin'
pour out some liquor, play ball and we keep ballin'
baby we've been living in sin 'cause we've been really in love
but we've been living as friends
so you've been a guest in your own home
it's time to make your house your home
pick up your phone, come on

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
"Ain't No Stopping Us Now", I love that song
whenever it comes on it makes me feel strong
I thought I told y'all that we won't stop
we back cruising through Harlem, Viso blocks
it's what made me, saved me, drove me crazy
drove me away than embraced me
forgave me for all of my shortcomings
welcome to my homecoming
yeah it's been a long time coming
lot of fights, lot of scars, lot of bottles
lot of cars, lot of ups, lot of downs
made it back, lost my dog (I miss you BIG)
and here I stand, a better man! (a better man)
Thank you Lord (Thank you Lord)

[Chorus]

The first post of many more to come ♥

To those reading,

Hello (: I guess it's time to introduce myself, but first, I thought you guys would be interested in knowing why I created a blog. Well, I decided to create a blog as a flashback journal kinda thing so that one day I can look back at this blog and all these memories will come to life and dance around me like a wonderful rush of energy (as corny as it sounds) so I'm sorry if it's not the most interesting blog to read but I hope it brings a smile, even if its a teeny tiny one, to your face (: Okay, more about me...my nickname is Nilly, as you probably already know from my profile, and I'm just an average teenage girl dealing with the adolescent years of my life,I have my ways of unwinding after those long, draining days that just get worse every second such as reading, songwriting, drawing, watching anime, reading manga, blogging, yoga (yes I'm an oldie at heart) and sometimes even just staring out the window and drifting away. I'm sure that as my blogging journal progresses, we shall get to know each other better but for now, I'd like to share with you one of the many beautiful poems I adore. I hope it brings the same joy to you, as it does to me.

I'm running through a field full of

daisies in the grass

Fresh air against my face,

seeing things from the past

The harder I run across the field,

the more lost I seem to be

The further I run,

the more I'm getting nowhere

or maybe it's just me

I'm running with the maximum speed

without a goal

While my deepest thoughts

are flowing from mind to soul

I want to run until I catch up

with the orange horizon

So now I've got to watch out

for the obstacles to come

I refuse to look backwards

it would just hold me up

So I keep running towards nowhere

To find my somewhere.